The Woman Within

As time moves on, the fog slowly lifts it's shroud to reveal more about the essence of my life till now. Like so many other transgendered individuals, I somehow knew I was different from other children at a very early age. As early as age 5, I remember trying on earrings from my mother's jewelry box. My hair was always very long as my parents apparently had a fondness for "big hair". I used to hear such comments from other mom's indicating what cute little girl I was - only to be quickly corrected by my mother. I, however, relished and thoroughly enjoyed these remarks but at that age, was not sure why. In grammar school, I sat primarily with the other girls and enjoyed their companionship and conversation to that of the boys. I especially enjoyed the friendship of one girl who used to either be at my house or me at hers every day playing. These platonic friendships all seemed to end right about age 12 or so and I remember that I felt isolated and no...

In 2007 we decided to move to New Hampshire and to find a house in the country. I had had enough of the social stresses and of having to play the male role I had to force upon myself daily in life and at work. It had been my self imposed responsibility and duty to play someone I was not. The woman inside me praised my ability to play this role by doling out anxieties and frail nerves to the point I could not exist to play the part any longer. We had visited Alaska twice in the years prior and I had fallen in love with the grandeur and splendor of the wilderness and of the solitude that was offered in abundance there. I had considered to move there and was speculating real estate outside of Fairbanks. But in reality, I knew this would not be realistic with both our families and for our jobs. We then turned our eyes back to New England and searched in New Hampshire, looking in the far northern reaches of the state. Joanne and I found a beautiful Log Home in Colebrook on 16 acres and hi...

Some of the Music whose lyrics really speak what's on my mind and in my heart.... Any of the items in red are clickable to bring up the music video... "So silent, No violence, But inside my head so loud and clear You're screaming, Cover up with a smile I've learned to fear" Lisa Miskovsky: "Still Alive"  "Set Me Free" by Chasing Eidolon "Like a Dream in the night, Who can say where we're going?" Brian Ferry: "More Than This" "I'm looking at myself, reflections of my mind, It's just the kind of day to leave myself behind" Moody Blues: "Tuesday Afternoon" "Why do we never get an answer when we're knocking at the door?" Moody Blues: "Question of Balance" "Life is bigger than you... And you are not me..." REM: "Losing My Religion" "I reached inside myself and found... Nothing there to ease the pressure of my ever ...

This is a work in progress...  please check back for new links as they are noted and added.... Transgender Basics - Understanding what it means to be Transgender - Great Video http://gaycenter.org/gip/transbasics/video One stop shopping for Name and Gender Change in Massachusetts Massachusetts Transgender Political Commision  Changing sex marker on a birth certificate - Listed by state http://wiki.susans.org/index.php/Changing_sex_on_birth_certificates_in_the_US Transgender 101: A primer page http://www.wikihow.com/Respect-a-Transgender-Person Listing of Diagnosis Codes for Doctors and Therapists for Billing An excellent resource page for all who are transgender http://www.transgendersoul.com/ Traveling by Plane - What you need to know from the TSA http://www.tsa.gov/travelers/airtravel/assistant/transgender.shtm Changing Your Passport: http://www.tsroadmap.com/reality/passport.html#us http://travel.state.gov/passport/get/first/f...

"Is that good...being like everybody? Isn't that the same as being nobody? ....There's got to be more to life than just that...." Number 12 Looks Just Like You "We must cut out all that is different, like a cancerous filth" Beauty is in the eye of the beholder "After a time, you may find that having, is not so pleasing a thing after all, then wanting. It is not logical, but it is often true" Amok Time

Being transgender does not define me.  It is a PART of who I am. but it does not change who I am inside and what I enjoy in my life. Life is so much more..... It is about so many aspects, people, relationships, feelings, and memories. Here are some examples of the memories which have made the adventure that is.... my life ...and I hope for many, many more.... Driving a Sled Dog Team in Quebec Province, Canada Cross Country Skiing - Mont Sainte Anne, Quebec, Canada Cruising Alaska'a Inside Passage

For lunch today, I had some left over Ziti and wondered what to do. A little bit of quick innovation led to a tasty lunch. First I drizzled some EVOO and a pat of butter in a large non-stick frying pan over medium/high heat Add fresh chopped garlic, then a bit of mushrooms followed by some chopped Kalamata Olives. Stir in a splash of equal amounts of Sherry and Marsala and let the alcohol burn off for a moment or two. Reduce heat to medium Add light sour cream and shredded cheddar cheese and Parmesan. Modify as you like.  This made for a tasty and quick lunch today!