Dream Myself Awake
I don't usually wake up startled in the middle of the night, sit up in my bed in the stillness of a dark room and wonder why my heart is racing and my skin has broken out in a sweat. I can't say that I could recall exactly it was that I had been dreaming of either. I can say that it wasn't anything positive or uplifting. Far from it. This doesn't usually happen to me so what exactly happened? Yesterday started out like any other day in recent times. I woke up, logged in to work and set out about my day. At some point, I found myself with some free time and so began to pick up where I left off with items associated with my name and gender marker change..... Another credit card company to call, another financial institution to correct some error on the new and present name I am proud owner of, another lawyer to contact about legalities that need to be synced up. Usual stuff. Well, it seemed usual. In all truthfulness, everything has been wearing on me, and w