Self Awareness
Having just turned 46 years old, one would think that one would have, by this point, a clear understanding of who their identity is as a person. One would think.... When one has lived a lifetime subjugated under a tyrannical familial rule, one can suppress and nearly lose one's own sense of self identity, substituting it instead for one which is accepted, expected and for which others praise. But... this comes at a cost. The price is one's own soul and their very sense of being. Living a life to others expectations brings hidden costs of anxieties and self worthlessness. We exist to live our lives but fail to live truly. One walks through life in the motions but feels as if they are a ghost... separated inside and with an ache that only they can see. The facade of the person they create pleases everyone else and so no-one suspects the hurt they bear deep within their own soul. The longer they continue to live the facade, the more it becomes who they are perceived to