Of Love Lost That Never Was
How can so many smiling pictures I post not even come close to portraying what hurt and sadness and betrayal I feel inside? It truly amazes me how well I have learned over the years and decades to bury these feelings so well. Yet still, I am unable to forever hide this pain and these thoughts from my self. This post is one which will be different from the many you may have read. I truly do not like to vent my sadness or my hurt and would rather choose to post only the bright and positive and of the good of things to come. But the weight that has been hiding and lurking within is becoming more and more omnipresent in my conscious thoughts by day and my agitated lucid dreams by night. My mom passed away a horrible death from dementia in January... something I blogged about in this link here . It was the end to many of the dark secrets and more dark secrets I had written about and hoped were put firmly behind me. Yet the box of Pandora is rarel...