On this New Year's Eve....
...I would like to stop to reflect on the year this has been and to
thank those who have taken even the smallest of paths to walk with me in
some way in my life.....and to thank them for allowing me to share in
at least the tiniest part of theirs.
In the year's journey, as in each year, I have tried to look at the horizon and at what COULD be rather than to look down at my feet as I stumble through a tangled forest of roots and of rock in the darkness at often what IS....
In so doing, I have tried to focus and to write of each of the joys and of each of the small successes in my life.... and to avoid the temptation to render my falterings and failings as if they were tangible weights dragging behind and threatening to render the journey impossible.
Far be it from me to say that this year has seen the culmination and fulfillment of plans I have laid forth, as I have tried to chart through the course of my entire life. The odyssey has been a paradoxical adventure of hidden gems and of dangerous sirens luring ships off course and to their death. There has been much which I have written and much which I have shared, and there is much which lays hidden from the sight of all but a select few who know the detailed intricacies of my voyage shared.
And, as it is my nature to withdraw, as some may know and many will not...
so many of the intimate intricacies of this voyage remain and shall remain engirded within the captive reach of my own space....for much of what waters must be sailed....must be sailed by myself.... as they are for each of us. The consequences of that course plotted and hence sailed thence become truly the ownership of our own conscience.
I look back across the stern of the ship at lands not to be seen ever again as their contours and shapes meld into the color of the endless sky and their features sink into the ever-curving horizon of an even more endless sea. I take with me the swag of the souvenirs both tangible and intangible which have brought me to this point and know that each one has had it's instrumental purpose and meaning, each person, each friend, each relationship I have had......all experiences which, hopefully, are allowing me a more safe passage into the great unknown as I turn back and look off the bow into a low mist which covers the ocean.....but through which I can see just the hazy and distant peaks of some distant land cutting above the undulating layer of that low mist.
I have no idea what course on the chart of destiny I am taking...
And realizing more that the course I chart is not exactly the one I am on...
But I'm going somewhere, of that I am certain....
And I am grateful to have friends travel along
Happy New Year.....
In the year's journey, as in each year, I have tried to look at the horizon and at what COULD be rather than to look down at my feet as I stumble through a tangled forest of roots and of rock in the darkness at often what IS....
In so doing, I have tried to focus and to write of each of the joys and of each of the small successes in my life.... and to avoid the temptation to render my falterings and failings as if they were tangible weights dragging behind and threatening to render the journey impossible.
Far be it from me to say that this year has seen the culmination and fulfillment of plans I have laid forth, as I have tried to chart through the course of my entire life. The odyssey has been a paradoxical adventure of hidden gems and of dangerous sirens luring ships off course and to their death. There has been much which I have written and much which I have shared, and there is much which lays hidden from the sight of all but a select few who know the detailed intricacies of my voyage shared.
And, as it is my nature to withdraw, as some may know and many will not...
so many of the intimate intricacies of this voyage remain and shall remain engirded within the captive reach of my own space....for much of what waters must be sailed....must be sailed by myself.... as they are for each of us. The consequences of that course plotted and hence sailed thence become truly the ownership of our own conscience.
I look back across the stern of the ship at lands not to be seen ever again as their contours and shapes meld into the color of the endless sky and their features sink into the ever-curving horizon of an even more endless sea. I take with me the swag of the souvenirs both tangible and intangible which have brought me to this point and know that each one has had it's instrumental purpose and meaning, each person, each friend, each relationship I have had......all experiences which, hopefully, are allowing me a more safe passage into the great unknown as I turn back and look off the bow into a low mist which covers the ocean.....but through which I can see just the hazy and distant peaks of some distant land cutting above the undulating layer of that low mist.
I have no idea what course on the chart of destiny I am taking...
And realizing more that the course I chart is not exactly the one I am on...
But I'm going somewhere, of that I am certain....
And I am grateful to have friends travel along
Happy New Year.....
Christen as always your prose ebbs and flows into a poetic portrait washing across the page. Safe journeys to new and promising lands in the new year. :-)
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