What an amazing past few days.....
It was without my looking for one, that just this past week, I was offered a job as my true self, as Christen.
Although my life is not at a point to undertake such a realm at this juncture, perhaps one day it will. I find it so reassuring that there are many who believe in who I am, perhaps more so than I ever have felt I believed could be within myself.
It was also in this past weekend that I was able to have the the opportunity to come forward as my true self to the family of a very close friend.
I will admit, that I was terrified as to how their 11 year old daughter would respond to me..... this, a girl who who does not know the meaning of the word transgender nor that I am. This, a girl who I am told does not often warm up to others she has known for years, found a special place cuddling next to me on the couch in the span of a few hours. I was terrified that she would not understand, when, on the very next day that I would see her again on a mountain hike we were to do with myself in male mode. To my very amazement, when I saw her again, I was still the same person.... I was Christen, albeit with shorter hair and no makeup.... but I was the same exact person to her as I was when I was the fully decked out woman she had just met the day before.
I can not fully express the feelings of elation, of relief and of amazement in which others have found trust in the truth of character of who I am. The shell of the person who presents means little when others seek to understand and come to realize the nature of the true soul of a person. I am just simply in awe of so many things!